“The flowers of late winter and early spring occupy places in our hearts well out of proportion to their size.” – Gertrude S. Wister



Afternoon in February

The day is ending,
The night is descending;
The marsh is frozen,
The river dead.

Through clouds like ashes
The red sun flashes
On village windows
That glimmer red.

The snow recommences;
The buried fences
Mark no longer
The road o’er the plain;

While through the meadows,
Like fearful shadows,
Slowly passes
A funeral train.

The bell is pealing,
And every feeling
Within me responds
To the dismal knell;

Shadows are trailing,
My heart is bewailing
And tolling within
Like a funeral bell.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow



Picture of Britain After more than a month of terrible weather, large swathes of the country face serious flood threats with the majority in central and western England Well, winter is slowly declining, and what a winter it`s been here in the UK, with flooding that has devastated peoples homes, lives and divided the government in it`s wake. The poor people of Somerset have taken the worst of the weather and farmers lost their crops, people are using boats to get about on the roads and tragically people have lost their lives. Waves brake at Ardrossan in Scotland as Britain experiences further bad weather, with a second tidal surge predicted for tonight High seas batter the Cobb at Lyme Regisy as thousands were yesterday urged to pack their bags or even evacuate because of the severe flooding threat A car drives through flood water on the Somerset Levels on January 29, 2014

February is about Imbolc: Hello, I'm Brigid, the ancient Celtic goddess of Imbolc. Christians turned me into a Saint and called the day Candlemas. In Irish mythological cycles, Brighid (or Brighit), whose name is derived from the Celtic brig or “exalted one”, is the daughter of the Dagda, and therefore one of the Tuatha de Dannan. Her two sisters were also called Brighid, and were associated with healing and crafts. The three Brighids were typically treated as three aspects of a single deity, making her a classic Celtic triple goddess. In many areas of the Celtic world, this was the fire feast of Brighid, the Irish goddess of hearth and home. She is the keeper of the flame, the protector of the home, and a goddess of holy wells and springs. At Imbolc, we acknowledge her many aspects, especially that of her role as a deity of transformation. As the world awakes from the dark slumber of winter, it is time to cast off the chill of the past and welcome the warmth of spring. February 2nd This holiday is also known as Candlemas, or Brigid’s (pronounced BREED) Day. One of the 4 Celtic “Fire Festivals. Celebrates the first signs of Spring.  This is the seasonal change where the first signs of spring and the return of the sun are noted, the first sprouting of leaves, the sprouting of the Crocus flowers etc. In other words, it is the festival commemorating the successful passing of winter and the beginning of the agricultural year. A time to light candles and see the changes as new life is showing, one of my favourite times as it`s starting to get pretty. february_love_calendar I pretty much ignored Valentines this year, my 6th as a singleton and treated it as just another day. Don`t know what i`m doing.................... On a better note, my coursework is still going well and I am amazing myself by still passing my assignments, I never credited myself before and despite struggling at times I seem to get through and my self confidence rises. Educating yourself My last TMA was particularly tough, with SPSS and so on, but I still managed to get a pass despite doubting myself and my ability to do it. Intuitive scientists My present TMA is about Intuition and I`m really enjoying this one, though the essay is a compare and contrast which are always a bit of a challenge, but apparently good practice for an exam in June! Nursing is an art My little Sister started university this week to become a Nurse, and I am so proud. She will make an excellent Nurse, she`s cool in a crisis but has compassion for others. It`s a tough call these days and when once it was a vocation it is now a career, but without Nurses where would we be? I know for a fact I am not just the product of my Families upbringing but numerous nurses that helped to raise me as I spent my childhood in and out of Hospital for six weeks at a time, two or three times a year if not more. being-a-nurse-means   Disability………………………………….. inspiration porn While I spent most of my life distancing myself from other disabled people, I sometimes get reminded why, as happened the other day on a social network site. Disabled people can sometimes be our own worst critics and judge each other by our own disabilities, experiences and limitations. In that, we can be the first to attack when someone else doesn`t meet our own expectations! I once went to a disability conference in London and was embarrassed and appalled on the attacks made to other disabled but also the able bodied present; it was more a lynch mobbing than a disability event, some of the victims being friends or relatives of disabled people that spoke, and were immediately shot down in flames. I actually left there feeling ashamed to be disabled. I can honestly say that I have never had a chip on my shoulder about being disabled, and don`t feel that sarcasm or bitterness towards others is the way forward to being treated as `normal` whatever that is, but I have been told by able bodied friends that they fear opening doors for someone in a wheelchair as they have in the past and been verbally insulted for it! Why? What`s that all about? I have watched disabled people I have lived with subtly take the mick when someone has meant well but over compensated with their manner. Yes it is annoying, or embarrassing when someone patronises you, or speaks down to you but there are other ways to show them that you`re just as mentally able as they are and I usually do it with humour but not at their expense. Often it is a generation thing, the older they are the more of a schema they have of disability, but again they are not above being re-educated. This discussion on the net the other day was when someone said they loved talking to others with the same condition but found some people have a `attitude problem.` This ended up with over 300 comments and some not very pleasant, but what is the point? We all have a disability, and in this particular case the SAME disability, and so why attack those that truly understand what we go through each day? I suddenly remembered why it was that after college I distanced myself from the disabled world: (1) Often the only conversation is disability, medications or pain. Yes we have it, but I personally don`t concentrate on it all the time. (2) The `them & us` mentality, disabled or not, we are all people. I am `normal` in mind and AB people may be short sighted, not hear too well, have some back pain or unseen disability or end up disabled themselves one day through illness or accident. There is NO them & us, we are all closely linked! (3) The conversation foreseeing what a certain disability will mean for us in the future. I have one friend that does this a lot, I love her dearly, but I don`t want to know the ins and outs of my disability or the forecast for the future. I am not sticking my head in the sand, I am just a live for the now type person. (4) I am a firm believer that if we see ourselves as `normal` then others will see us as `normal;` if we see ourselves as disabled, then that is how we will be seen. We act according to how we see ourselves and so do others. Disabilit 2

About Maith an cailin

Born in the 1960s, I`m a single Mum of a young adult. I am a full-time wheelchair user, who has been single since a marriage breakdown in 2008. I live in a UK remote village, not easy with a disability but this is a honest account of a ordinary Woman with a disability.
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